new year time. Year in review time. looking back time.
looking forward time. time to get it together, and let some of it go forever.
i am moving to london, england on december 30, 2008 at 6:45 am.
i will arrive at heathrow airport at 6:00 am on december 31, 2008.
ava and sammie will pick me up from the airport. they will drive me to their house where i will proceed to live for the next four months.
i will see Liam again. i can't believe i'm actually going to see him again. it's weird to think about it. it seems so long ago. and kind of like it happened to another person. i wonder if we'll even want to be friends now, let alone in a relationship... ????
i also chatted with my new "sam" on skype today. i have another sam :)
he's so amazing... how do men like this exist? and he's STRAIGHT?! figures he'd have to be practically a teenager... 22 is like, a lifetime ago for me. i can't even remember it. well, i can, but i'm still trying to forget it. ugh. 22... the Ken days. lol! the friggin' ken days. talk about another lifetime... is he even still alive? i haven't heard from or about him in yearrrrrrrrrs. last i heard he was all cracked out and a crazy pack rat. imagine what my life would be had i married him...
i'm sick again. why am i always sick? i think i have AIDS. serves me right.
that doesn't make sense, but still. i probably have AIDS. i'm ALWAYS on the brink of death, for pete's sake. whatever. what was i talking about? oh yeah. england : )
so, who knows what will happen. i certainly don't. and i've really become someone who PREFERS not knowing what's going to happen. i've totally let go of planning everything down to the second and completely let go. it feels so good. and oh- i'm old now. i just turned 31 a few days ago. now THAT seems un-real. i still feel 16... with the exception of my hips feeling like they want off my body... why am i a rickety old man? who knows. getting older is amazing.
and terrifying. i can't wait to see what happens in the next 31 years.
see you in london.
<3
ps- hi mermaid.
i miss you.
